Concrete Lily
Sometimes what we see isn’t what we expect. Photo by Rachel Andrews


I have to admit to being a late bloomer when it comes to visualization. Even after I could see energy with my third eye on a consistent basis, doing any seeing with my eyes closed was still very difficult. I remember doing an experiment with a friend in high school. He was very gifted at astral projection so we decided that he would project over to my room and I would look for him. Then, when he was done, we’d call each other and talk about what we had both experienced. What he described was truly amazing. He told me what plugs I had in the outlet behind my television, what I was wearing, and other things like what was on the windowsill or on my bed. I had a checkers game out on the floor, and he even described the way the lid was slightly askew. It was incredible.

At first, I closed my eyes and tried to see him that way. I figured that since he was out of body and had his eyes closed, mine should be too. Unfortunately, I was blank. How could he be so good at this and yet I could see nothing? I was inspired and a little embarrassed.

I tried everything to learn to see with my eyes closed, but no trick seemed to work. A different friend and I went to a guided meditation for practice. We figured that a professional would be more skilled in helping us develop this seemingly ordinary skill. The meditation leader grounded us and led us through a waterfall so we could meet our spirit guides. She took us through the woods where a pond appeared in a clearing, and on and on. It sounded beautiful, but I felt frustrated as the only images appearing in my mind were clumps of colors that didn’t make sense to me.

I kept at it though, and what I learned in the process of trying to visualize, was that I possessed a different, but complimentary skill. That skill led me on to visualizing, so here is the roundabout way that my higher self took me.

I already had the ability to look with my eyes open at a person, object, or spirit and see the wispy energy it contained. So for example, looking past someone’s shoulder enabled me to see their aura, but only in gray. One day, something clicked and I felt the color. I looked at someone’s aura and just felt that it was purple near her elbow and orange at her feet. Every body part I looked at, had a different color feeling. Of course, I had no way of validating my feelings, but I felt encouraged.

This feeling of accomplishment and the color-feeling skill was the bridge I needed in order to see with my eyes closed. The first time it worked, I will never forget. I was sitting in the middle seat of my friend’s mini van, talking with a boy in the back. Once the conversation was over, I turned around to face the front, closed my eyes, and I saw the outline of his body in gray, with colors floating on top of his body. I was seeing his whole aura, colors and all, with my eyes closed. I was so happy!

I learned a few things from this. First, because I was not trying to see his aura in my mind, it was easier to do. In that moment, my higher self found a way in, and up popped that picture. Through that experience, I was able to connect the feeling of getting it right with the process of doing it. In other words, I knew what visualizing successfully felt like because it happened, and from there on, I had a set point to match up with. It’s like knowing what radio station you want on the dial, and then gently adjusting it back and forth until the signal is clear.

Second, I realized that I was trying way too hard to see what I expected to see. I didn’t know that people could see auras in their mind like that. So it was easier for my higher self to slip that in. During the guided meditation, I was trying to see trees and the waterfall, and make them look a certain way. This hindered my ability to let go and be led into the scene. Turning off the mind, which is another psychic skill, is necessary at least to get the ball rolling in visualization. It makes sense, too. How can you expect to see visions or new worlds if you’re thinking about what they would look like? The two clash.

The third thing I learned through this, is that what we want may show up in unexpected ways. I had to learn color-feeling before I could see with my eyes closed. This may have been because I was so focused on the masculine, practice mode of learning visualization that I needed that bridge. I was too rigid, and all it gave me was a feeling of frustration. It’s better to be intent on learning new skills, but to also “go with the flow.” There is more room then for the higher self to actually commune with us.

In my experience with all the psychic skills I posses, I have found it easier to have an intent or a curiosity to learn, then after they make an appearance, that’s when I really practice. Then the skills can be honed and evolved. The number one attractor of new skills is an openness to receive them. Also, if something that you want to learn is evading you, it may not be part of your plan. Even though I do many meditations using visualization techniques, most of the time I use my third eye with my eyes open. I do the color-feeling scanning instead of closed eye scanning, and during readings, I see spirits and energy patterns in the air, and not behind my eyelids. Visualization was important for me to learn, but as it turns out, it’s not an everyday tool for me.

There are unlimited paths to knowledge. Learning a new skill can come about fast and easy, or take some turns, like what happened to me. Sometimes the fastest way isn’t always the best for us. I obviously needed to learn more first. Be gentle with yourself and the process of psychic unfoldment will be much more enjoyable and fruitful.